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Wow I need to update this thing more. I haven’t said anything since my fiction class at Las Positas, and I’m already into my third week at Saint Mary’s now!

Yup, I’m at Saint Mary’s College, as a sophomore, and it is great. I’m adding to my major though; there’s an English program (so I don’t have to CHANGE my major) available that preps students to teach high school ENglish - which is exactly what I want to do. SO I’m going to contact the supervisor of the program, set up an appointment, and hopefully enroll.

I’m also hopefully going to be getting a job soon, too. I’ve picked out three, two which are one day a week gigs, and the third one is an actual part time job. One of the one days gigs will require the use of a car, so my parents and I are going to talk about that the next time I go home (of course, it’s entirely possible that the job will have been taken by then, but I could call in the next couple days and tell them that I’m getting a car? Maybe. Dunno).

Went salsa dancing in the school cafeteria last night until 11. It was so much fun! The signs around campus said it was Wednesday night, not Tuesday, but my roomie’s friend had come to spend the night, and so we tried out the Late Night meal option at the cafeteria, and heard the music. That’s pretty much the only way we found out, but it was so worth it!!

I actually asked a couple people to dance - including a boy. Proud of myself, I am.

Aaaand I have to go run to Bible class in a few minutes. La!

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caitlin on September 16th 2009 in Message From Our Sponsor

Difference

Difference
Rating: PG, because there’s some fighting and minor gore.
Genre: Fantasy, adventure
Characters: Aleczaunder, Jeira, Sascha, and Escar
Type: Original Short story
Word Count: 4,208
Disclaimer: All characters and ideas are mine, being original creations. So, copyright!
Summary: A short fantasy piece I wrote a while ago. It’s mainly about two children, and this may or may not get a follow-up piece or two.

Footsteps thundered rapidly down the stairs, boots striking a solid rhythm on the circular stone steps. Most of the activity in the hall closest to those same stairs came to an abrupt halt, an anticipatory and almost eerie silence descending on everyone within the chamber. They turned to face the entrance as one, seeming to hold their breath.

The footsteps became louder and louder, and then the one making all the noise came bursting through the entryway, leaping the last five steps to the ground as if merely jumping a creek. The young man landed nimbly on all fours, panting slightly from the haste of his run as well as from the winding, close terrain he’d crossed.

“The Lady – ” he began, only to be interrupted by one of the older men in the hall as he moved forward.

“Stand up boy, stand up!” A grizzled hand clamped down on the young man’s shoulder, drawing him upwards and onto his feet. “Tell us the news with some pride; give your wings some dignity!”

He grinned up at his elder, grateful for the hand up. “Of course, Grandfather,” he said after catching his breath, brushing fly-away locks of dark hair out of his golden-orange eyes. Turning once more to face those who had gathered in the chamber once they had heard him coming (and that number had increased in the few moments he’d spent catching his breath), the young messenger squared his shoulders, threw back his head and let out the high, piercing scream of a hawk. His head snapped back down, a fierce and nearly predatory light gleaming in the backs of his bird’s-eyes.

“The Lady Arronsda, mate of our Alpha, has given us a daughter, and the Panther has accepted! The Light returns to the clans!” he roared, that same hawk’s cry still lurking at the back of his voice.

An answering roar came from all gathered, several other animalistic calls echoing among the noise.

Hail the Alpha!

Hail the Lady!

Hail the Light!

*~*~*

Ten Passes later

Aleczaunder didn’t want to watch his little sister. He wanted to go to the clear pool in the woods, where the water was sweet and cool and the grasses shaded by the gentle oaks and pines. He’d found the clearing a few years ago, when he was still able to go off by himself, and had made a habit of visiting the place often. He’d never told anyone about its existence, either, except for Cazze. Cazze was his closest friend in all the world, and Aleczaunder had no secrets from the boy who was close enough to be his brother. In fact, they might soon truly be brothers; Aleczaunder was to be fostered soon, and he had heard his parents discussing fostering him with Cazze’s family. And everyone knew that fostering was almost as bonding a family tie as marriage, tying families and tribes together as allies and friends.

Aleczaunder smiled brightly as he thought on this, though his smile quickly soured into a brief frown as he heard his sister calling for him. He was twelve Passes already, and shouldn’t have to watch small children anymore as if he were still a youngling!

Immediately a tendril of contrition wended through his mind, and Aleczaunder sighed. He was just disappointed that he couldn’t visit his clearing. It wasn’t Jeira’s fault she was so young she needed looking after. And in truth, most of the time he didn’t mind watching his baby sister, for she was intelligent for a youngling of only four Passes, and especially for a girl.

Aleczaunder remembered his father telling him one night that he shouldn’t see women as others did, that he should respect them as intelligent and strong creatures in their own rights.

“’Zaunder,” his father had said, placing the then seven Passes old Aleczaunder on his knee one night after the young boy had asked his father what the drunken old Azi had meant in his inebriated rant that night, and why so many of the women in the village had turned their faces from him. “’Zaunder, don’t listen to old te-alns like Drunk Azi. Women have different things than men to do, different burdens to bear. They are no less than any other man, and are strong, intelligent creatures in their own ways.”

Aleczaunder has asked his father in what ways women different from men, other than that they smelled nice and were soft and warm to touch. His father had thrown back his head and laughed at that, clapping a strong hand on Aleczaunder’s head and ruffling his hair with great affection. “Ah, ‘Zaunder. A woman is a mystery, and her strengths are for the man who will be her equal to figure out for himself. One man cannot tell another a woman’s secrets, not even father to son.”

“But Father, how will I know?” Aleczaunder had asked, crossing his thin arms over his chest, trying his best not to pout, as young men did not pout. His father had shared a look with his wife, and then grinned down at his son.

“That, my boy, is yours to find out.”

“Even an Arronsda woman?” Aleczaunder asked, remembering another thing Drunk Azi had spat out and many of the stories he had heard about the wild, wicked, beastly Arronsda.

That question had brought both of his parents to halt, the two of them sharing a sharp and measured look that Aleczaunder did not catch.

“Again, ‘Zaunder, that is something you will have to find out for yourself,” his father said finally, his large hand resting heavily upon Aleczaunder’s shoulder. “But promise me that you will always remember that simply because she is a woman - or even an Arronsda - does not make her any less than you are.” Aleczaunder hadn’t really understood what his father had meant at the time, but he had promised, because he loved his father, and he loved his mother and sisters as well.

That scene – and his promise – still echoing in his mind, Aleczaunder let out a soft sigh and turned in the direction of Jeira’s voice. “Over here, little bird,” he called, eyes and lips softening as he watched her make her way towards him as fast as her small legs, still soft with baby fat, could take her. She had picked up a fair amount of speed, barreling towards him, and Aleczaunder dipped into a stoop and swept her up in his arms even as her legs still kicked, though now from delight instead of direct movement.

“Alec, Alec!” Jeira burbled happily, squealing with laughter as Aleczaunder began to spin the two of them about, an answering grin spreading across his face. “Again!” she cried, circling her arms exuberantly.

“Jeira,” Aleczaunder half laughed, half groaned. “I’m dizzy, little bird.” He staggered about in an exaggerated manner, dipping and swaying, making Jeira shriek and giggle all over again as she clutched at his shirt and arms. Aleczaunder stopped after a few moments, Jeira still giggling happily in his arms. He smiled down at her, his earlier resentment mostly faded. A small kernel rested in the back of his mind, but he ignored it.

And then an idea came to him. He could watch Jeira and still visit the pool – he would simply take her with him! Besides, it wasn’t as if Jeira would be able to lead anyone else back to the clearing, and even if she babbled about it to someone else (which was highly likely, as Jeira wasn’t called ‘little bird’ without cause; her sweet, high-pitched voice could always be heard, constantly chattering), Aleczaunder could always pass it off as some other clearing.

“Jeira,” he said, something of a mischievous spark glinting in his eyes, “want to know a secret?”

*~*~*

“Escar! Escar!”

The call echoed through the sunlight trees, but no response came, either verbal or mental. “Escar!” wailed the girl again, clambering over a rock only to collapse to her hands and knees, panting, but her head still up and scanning the area. “Escar, where are you?” she cried, sounding as if she were going to burst into tears.

“Here now; why the fuss?”

She jumped at the voice, whirling on all fours in a crouch. The voice had come from behind her, and had sounded more concerned and curious than dangerous, but she had been told not to take chances. Even so, when she saw the owner of the voice, she relaxed some. After all, he was only a young boy, and carrying an even younger girl-child with him.

That didn’t mean she would tell him anything, though. At least, not yet.

The boy gave her a quizzical look, though his expression remained otherwise gentle, and his manner unthreatening. “Did you lose something?” he asked, hitching the small girl higher on his hip. He got no reply, and for another moment or two, the three of the remained in silence.

“My name is Aleczaunder,” he said finally, hoping that might make the little girl feel more at ease. He noticed absently that the crouch she held herself in made her look like a very small panther, albeit human. “This is my younger sister, Jeira.” There was another pause where the three simply stared at each other. “Please, Lady, what is your name?” Aleczaunder asked, “and what have you lost?”

Despite his polite tone, Aleczaunder privately admitted to some surprise; he hadn’t expected to see anyone out here, and especially not a girl only a little bit younger than he! Part of him wondered if she had come here for the pool clearing – after all, it was very close by to where they were.

The girl relaxed her crouch, coming down off of her fingers and toes to sit on the rock in that casually boneless way of young children. She regarded Aleczaunder and Jeira with a slightly wary expression, though it was fast becoming replaced by curiosity.

“I am Sascha, of the Light,” she said finally, climbing to her feet as she spoke. “And I am looking for Escar. I lost him!” This last was said on a wail, her face scrunching ever so slightly. “I have to find him!”

Aleczaunder shifted Jeira on his hip. “Why don’t we help you?” He blinked as the words fell from his lips; he hadn’t really meant to say them! Then again, it appeared tat this ‘Escar’ was very important to Sascha, and in some way she made him want to help her.

Sascha looked up at Aleczaunder and Jeira and sniffed once, her large golden-green eyes blinking as she swiped one hand across her nose. “Really?” she asked, sniffing again. “You will help me find Escar?”

Aleczaunder nodded, and Jeira burbled happily, grinning and nodding as well. Sascha’s eyes lit, and a grin beamed across her face.

“Thank you!” she said happily, and Aleczaunder noticed that her teeth seemed just a bit whiter than most, and that her bicuspids and canines seemed ever so slightly pointed and sharp-looking…But he dismissed the thought, and gave the girl a small grin.

“What does Escar look like?” he asked, hitching Jeira again. She might have only been four Passes old, but she was heavy!

“Well,” Sascha began, her brows furrowing together in thought, “he’s black, but if you look closely you can see his spots. But he sometimes likes to climb up in the trees. I think that might be how I lost him the first time. He climbed up in a tree.”

Aleczaunder was rapidly coming to the conclusion that Sascha wasn’t talking about a person, or even a toy as he had first suspected.

“Um, Sascha, lady?” he asked, swallowing once. “What…what exactly is Escar?”

Sascha blinked up at Aleczaunder, an almost nonplussed expression on her face.

“He’s my rhiati, of course,” she said in a matter-of-fact tone, as if Aleczaunder should have known this and it confused her that he did not.

Rhiati?” Aleczaunder repeated faintly, recognizing that word from somewhere…

“Yes, my rhiati. Father said he came to me at my birth, the one chosen by the spirit of our clan to be my guardian and teacher. He’s a black jaguar, a panther.”

Aleczaunder froze, his eyes widening as he stared at the girl in front of him. Jeira let out a noise of protest as his arms tightened around her small body, hugging her close to him protectively.

“Arronsda,” he breathed, taking a step back, keeping his eyes on Sascha. Of all the things to run into alone, he had come upon an Arronsda!

Aleczaunder’s mind fed him all the myths and tales he’d ever heard of the Arronsda, how they were ruthless and vicious, beasts in human form that ran with animals. How they could take another shape, and you’d never know one was there until they ripped your throat out. He’d heard some of the older warriors telling tales of the Animalius Passes, when battles had gone back and forth between the Arronsda and humans. As a child the tales had given him nightmares, and some of his old watchers had told him that if he were a bad boy and misbehaved or broke any of the tribe laws, the Arronsda would carry him off. He’d told Jeira some of those same stories, holding her close and promising he’d protect her when she squeaked in fear.

And now there was an Arronsda in front of them, gazing up at him with a curiously bewildered look, those amazingly golden-green eyes just barely tinged with hurt and confusion.

Sah Aleczaunder?” Sascha asked, stepping forward. “Are you alright?”

Aleczaunder looked at Sascha as if she had lost her mind, or grown three heads. Then again, her being an Arronsda, he wasn’t entirely sure she wouldn’t grow three heads and devour him and Jeira!

Sah Aleczaunder?” she asked, taking a small step forward. Aleczaunder noted, even in his panic, that there appeared to be no madness in her eyes, no frothy foam at her mouth, no aggression in her tiny body. If anything, she seemed concerned about him! But…Arronsda had no care. They were cruel and heartless, little more than beasts. Something still rational in Aleczaunder’s mind pointed out that if Arronsda really were like that, why hadn’t this little one killed him and Jeira already? So far, all she had done was cry for a lost ‘companion’, and smile when he had offered his help to find whatever she had lost. Of course, it was entirely possible that she had smiled because now she would get them alone and be able to eat them in peace, muttered a dark part of his mind, suspicious and still panicked.

Aleczaunder gave Sascha another suspicious glare, taking another step back, hunching his shoulders forward and shifting his arms so that he covered as much of Jeira with them as possible. His legs tensed beneath him, the muscles trembling slightly as he readied them to spring into a run –

And then a deafening roar shattered the still air as a pair of sun-lizards came tumbling into the clearing, slashing and ripping at each other, hisses and snarls and growls and roars sounding as they fought. Aleczaunder stared in shock and Jeira set up a wail, frightened tears pooling in her eyes, but Aleczaunder felt as though his legs were frozen.

Sun-lizards were the size of two blacksmiths and incredibly vicious; all the more so for their intelligence. Despite their size, the creatures were quick, and even through his fear Aleczaunder had to admire the natural weapons natural had given these formidable predators. Black, four-inch long curved claws tipped agile hands, two rows of serrated teeth filled a snapping mouth and a lashing, spiked tail flowed out behind each creature, jointed in such a way that it could be cracked like a whip at its intended victims or wrapped around them like a binding.

“Quick! While they’re distracted we can get some distance between us!” Sascha’s voice jolted Aleczaunder out of his stupor, and he gasped, blinking several times as he noticed that she was much, much closer than she had been before the sun-lizards crashed into the clearing. She grabbed one of his arms then, and she had a surprisingly firm grip for such a slight girl as she appeared to be. “Come on!” she said then, and for a moment Aleczaunder would swear he heard a growl. Part of him, the part steeped in those stories, wanted to protest and yank his arm away, but the much more rational part simply took over and urged his legs into following her, especially when one of the sun-lizards lifted its head in their direction.

They ran for what seemed like hours, but the sounds of the two sun-lizards still sounded as if they were right behind the children. Jeira’s wails were ignored by the older two, though if the sun-lizards did decided to follow them, they certainly wouldn’t have to look for any tracks; they would only need to follow Jeira’s screaming!

They finally collapsed in a clearing, panting for breath, though Sascha was up moments later and urging Aleczaunder on, once more grasping his arm and tugging him behind her.

“Just a little farther, Sah Aleczaunder!” she urged, giving him a pleading look before glancing behind them to check for the sun-lizards. So far, it appeared they had gotten away. Another five minutes of running, and they had reached a brook, and Sascha let go of Aleczaunder’s arm to drop gratefully to her knees and scoop up the water in great handfuls. Aleczaunder followed suit, carefully scooping water for Jeira as well, as using some to wipe her face clean.

“Are we…safe, then?” he panted, glancing at Sascha, who nodded breathlessly.

“We should be,” she replied. “I don’t think – ”

And then Jeira screamed, pointing over Aleczaunder’s shoulder. Before he could turn to look, he felt something striking him from the side – Sascha! She barreled into him, knocking him out of the way of the sun-lizard’s strike. It must have killed the other one, and decided to follow them. Apparently the other sun-lizard hadn’t been enough to sate its appetite.

The creature hissed as it hit the ground and whirled, long tongue flicking between its teeth, claws clenching and dragging furrows in the ground. Sascha kept them rolling until they ended up behind the point where a felled tree trunk met a boulder, creating a small space for them to hide. They huddled there while the sun-lizard roared and hissed in the clearing behind them, hoping the savage creature wouldn’t find them quite yet.

A scream like the snarl of rapidly ripping canvas echoed in the clearing, rising and falling in pitch. The sun-lizard paused a moment, head cocked to the side, though it’s eyes never stopped scanning for the three children. Aleczaunder hugged Jeira tighter to him, then –

“Lady Sascha! What are you doing?” he cried as the girl leapt to her feet and dashed out of the hiding place. He let go of Jeira, placing her farther back in the hidey-hole and firmly telling her to stay put before scrambling after Sascha. She might be an Arronsda, but she had helped him and Jeira so far, and his father had taught him a kindness was always repaid with equal measure. He couldn’t let her go out there alone anyways; she might get hurt! And as a warrior in training, Aleczaunder could never allow that.

Escar!

The tearing-canvas scream came again, this time joined by a high, sibilant hissing shriek and the pure notes of a human cry.

“Lady Sascha!” Aleczaunder cried again, coming fully out of the hiding place. He cast about for something, anything he could use as a weapon, but all he could find were rocks. He grabbed up handfuls of them, and then turned to see what was happening. He almost dropped them at what he saw.

Sascha was riding a panther! The hugest one he’d ever seen, too! Even so, the sun-lizard was almost half again as large as the panther fighting it. The canvas-ripping scream seemed to be coming from both the panther and Sascha, and for a moment Aleczaunder was frozen again. Then he saw the tail coming in at Sascha’s and the panther’s backs, and with a cry he lobbed one of the sharper rocks. It hit with unerringly accuracy, smacking the last joint of the sun-lizard’s tail and sending it off-course so that it just missed its intended target – Sascha’s head. The reptile screamed again, whirling to see who had joined the fight – which gave Sascha and her panther the opening they needed. With a howl that set the hairs on the back of Aleczaunder’s neck to standing, Sascha urged the panther forward.

“Now, Escar!”

With a leap, the two landed on the sun-lizard’s back, and swiftly the panther clawed its way up towards the huge head. Then, with one last, savage growl, it swiped across the reptile’s neck with on large paw, razor sharp claws slicing through scales and flesh as the powerful jaws clamped down on the back of the neck and shook. There was a snap, and the sun-lizard slumped to the ground, dead.

Escar dropped the creature’s neck from its mouth and leapt down to the ground, Sascha still clinging tightly to its back. Aleczaunder let the stone he was holding drop from his fingers as they neared. They had done it. She had done it. Sascha and Escar had taken out a full grown sun lizard, with little help from himself. Aleczaunder knew that not even his father could have done it so neatly, and his father was a seasoned warrior. Sascha was but a slip of a girl, and she…

He had misjudged her. Aleczaunder had believed all the horrible stories he’d heard about the Arronsda, and now, to have them proven wrong right before his eyes in such an unbelievable fashion… How could he ever manage to repay his debt to this girl? Automatically, one response - in truth, the only response - came to mind.

Sah Aleczaunder?” Sascha asked, opening her mouth to ask if he was all right when Aleczaunder dropped to his knees. Sascha blinked in surprise. “Sah Aleczaunder?”

“Lady, my sword and life are yours now. My duty is to you, and my honor serves to bring you glory all my days,” he said, raising his hand to her, palms up. The traditional words of fealty fell easily from his lips, and if earlier that day he would have been appalled at the thought of swearing fealty and a life-debt to an Arronsda (as well as laughingly sure such a situation would never possibly come to be), he no longer felt that way. How could he, after this girl had fought for him and his sister, saving their lives? He hadn’t missed the fear in her voice, nor the beginnings of fatigue when she had said his name. Nor had he missed that she seemed hunched over on one side, as if she had been wounded.

No, he could do far worse than offer his oath to her.

Sah Aleczaunder,” Sascha murmured, staring at him in shock. “I…” Then she closed her eyes, opening them a moment later. Aleczaunder continued before she could say anything.

“Among my people, we offer our pledges to those who fight honorably, and preserve the lives of others,” he said, still holding up his open hands towards her. “You have saved not only my life, Lady Sascha of the Light, but that of my baby sister, Jeira, and I owe you more for that than for my own. I had been taught that Arronsda were cruel creatures, but you have proved all those tales false. Please, lady,” he said, almost begging, “let me honor you.”

Sascha didn’t know what to say for a moment.

“Among my people,” she finally said softly, and Aleczaunder glanced up at her, “we would say that you have earned skin privileges, and the right to Pack and clan.” She slid from Escar’s back to kneel before Aleczaunder, and reached out with a hand, resting it lightly on his cheek. She smiled.

“We are Pack, now. A clan,” she murmured, and Aleczaunder offered her a small grin of his own.

“Thank you,” he said in the same murmur as Sascha. “I am proud to be your clan, Lady Sascha of the Light.” He slipped off one of the leather bands about his left wrist, and handed it to Sascha. He knew that doing so meant his bond to her was permanent, even more so than by simply giving her his word. A warrior only gave his sword once, to one master, and he had given his to this girl. Aleczaunder honestly couldn’t say if he would regret it.

Sascha smiled, took the wristband and patted his cheek, then stood. Together they gathered Jeira, who wound her arms around Aleczaunder’s neck and her legs about his torso with near crushing strength. He bowed as best he could to Sascha, and then turned to head home. Once he reached the edge of the clearing however, he paused and looked back over his shoulder. Sascha still stood there, one hand resting lightly on Escar’s shoulder as the panther sat at her feet.

“Lady Sascha?”

Sah Aleczaunder?”

Aleczaunder hesitated a moment, then plunged on. They had just taken on a sun lizard together - and won! Surely he could do this. Surely. “Do you…do you know of the small pool about forty lengths from where…where we first met?”

Sascha nodded slowly. “I do; Escar and I like to swim there.”

“Would…would you like to…to swim there with…with me?” Aleczaunder asked quietly. “Tomorrow? Or sometime? Or, or, you don’t have to, I mean…” He trailed off into silence, blushing a dull red across his cheeks. Sascha just grinned again.

“I’d like that,” she said. “Tomorrow.”

Aleczaunder grinned then, gave another short bow, and turned to take Jeira home. They could both use some tending after today’s adventure, and Aleczaunder was fairly certain he would get some kind of lecture or punishment for this. But tomorrow would make it all worthwhile.

Maybe the Arronsda weren’t the monsters all the legends said they were. For certain, Aleczaunder knew one of them wasn’t. He smiled then, thinking on what his mother would say when she noticed the missing band. He would simply tell her he had lost it in the forest.

It wasn’t like he couldn’t find it again.

END

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caitlin on October 12th 2008 in Fiction, Original Fiction, Uncategorized

The Old Homestead Tonight

So, Anthony and Cathy took me to the Ren Faire last Saturday for my birthday. Holy crap it was an excellent day! Even with the raining - make that especially with the raining! We all wandered around together (Halfbeard had come with us), mostly because Cathy and I really wanted to get period garb. We eventually found a few things, and both of us walked away with an outfit. Cathy already had some things, so she just got a Pandora dress in bright red. I got an entire outfit, because I had nothing. It was pretty cool, though; Cathy’s dress had the saleswomen drooling and mine had them making the inevitable “cute” and “adorable” remarks, which eventually devolved into them proclaiming Cathy and I to be the “Fire Goddess and Her Lusty Wench Companion.”

We spent most of the day wandering around the market, then playing chess or Cathedral, and then watching the MooNiE Show, the BRooN Show, and then the MooNiE and BRooN Show! I got a number of pictures of that, though I missed snapping a few of the BRooN show by itself. But. HOMG. THEY’RE BLOODY HILARIOUS. I think I hurt my face, watching their shows, because I was laughing and smiling so much!

And there was the cutest boy at the leather works/shoe stall. OMG. Like…yeah. Cat is actually going nuts over a male person. (SHUSH CATHY. xP) I’m so horrible; I wanted to go back to the stall after getting my garb to ask him if I should get new boots to go with it… >.> Maybe next time.

I’M SO GOING BACK TO THE FAIRE. TOTALLY.

Yeah. I’ll go babble away at something else now. :D

-is very highly pleased-

OH! Oh oh oh! I’ve got a few new ideas for poems and stories, too. A couple things on stars (we found out in Biology class that when you turn the radio to the static between the stations, you’re actually listening to stars talk, AND all the atoms i existence come from exploded stars. We’re made of stardust!), and then I got an idea off of a Moody Blues song (Other Side of Life), and another bit I was working on that actually involved a few friends. Names and species have been changed to protect their identities, as well as the concept of reality within the story. :D HA HA.

Also, I’ve discovered Freemind! I’ve mapped out a few things already, and it’s definitely helped with Pandemic. Things are much clearer now on that front, and I think I might actually start expanding it now. I just need Remy’s information on the lady doctor, and I think I’ll be about ready to go. Not to mention I need to start working on Woot And Huzzah and Medics. Yes, there is now a third possible book, which may or may not lead into a fourth. YAY CREATIVITY. And I’ve got a few other projects floating around on that software that would be really cool to develop.

And I finally wrote the second stanza to La Veuve Noir. Took me long enough! Now I’ve got four more to go. Ha! Oh, there’s a couple new poems, too, that have already been written. ‘Not, Not, Not, I’m Not’ which is…kind of a break up song, I guess? “Because I don’t like you nearly as much as you like me” and then ‘Soul Cry’, which is kind of a similar vein, I guess. But they’re both rather nice. And people who’ve seen them seem to like them, so I’m not complaining!

All in all, things are quite well on the home front. :3

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caitlin on October 11th 2008 in Uncategorized

Are You Sure You’re Worksafe?

Wooo! I had an adventure today. A very grand adventure.

(Wait for it…)

I suffered heat exhaustion!

Oh, and my work-partner, Michele, too.

She and I dress as the mascot characters for the Alameda County Fair (which I have ranted about before; see previous two entries, I believe?). Me as Curious George, her as Strawberry Shortcake.

I swear, she always gets the easy costumes. I say this with all friendly affection and teasing, of course, because while my costume does have three layers, all right over my abdominothoracic area (er, read as: ‘torso’) and completely covered in synthetic fur, she’s still got the huge bobble-head from Hell. I mean, that costume head is probably about the size of her. And she’s not that much shorter than me, either. So her head kind of evens out that her costume is one layer, quick zip, while I’ve got the padding-fat-suit to wear under the synthetic fur body suit which goes under that little red shirt, and then the feet and hands and head. All still covered in that synthetic fur.

So, yeah, I roast pretty quickly. And my costume head is broken, too; couple of screw are loose (ha ha, yes) and it slides around while I’m wearing it, hurting my neck and making it very hard to see on occasion, especially as I can’t really wear my glasses underneath that thing.

Anyways.

We were perfectly fine this morning; it was an easy walk around, only a few kids. And then we were back inside, just like that. It wasn’t even 12:30 and we were already on lunch. We ate in the office, after leaving to buy the food. But for some reason…God, the second time out, I was pretty good until the end of story time. Then I was just too damn hot in that suit. I have never been that hot before, not even last year when it was nearly 100+ degrees every day of the Fair. But today…I was pretty much cooking inside that thing, and I’m not really exaggerating. I was (and yes, this sounds a little gross) drowning in my own sweat, but I wasn’t getting any cooler, and was actually getting a little light headed. I told one of our ‘handlers’, and they got us out of there lickety-split. ‘Course, that kind of nixed the idea for a third walk around later, with me being too hot and especially when Michele bumped her head - inside the Strawberry Shortcake costume head - on the outside air conditioning unit.

Both of us got nauseous, light headed, dizzy, and so on. We’d called in Angel, telling her we weren’t feeling up to the walk about, and she came in to the office to check on us. It was Michele that worried us at first, she was showing much more obvious symptoms than me. Actually, she was just showing more symptoms, period. I was actually feeling okay, if only because I wasn’t really feeling anything at all yet. xD I was fine until we reached the EMS/First Aid tent. Then, man did I start to feel light headed and really dizzy and…yeah. Like yuck, and overheated yuck, to boot.

I actually stayed outside the building for a while, and they got me a cold pack, which I promptly shoved onto my neck and shoulders and upper back, and then I just kind of dropped my head onto my arms on that outside table. Eventually, they asked me to go inside, because it would help me cool off, and they asked me questions to keep me awake and all that.

I have never felt so hot and uncomfortable and completely out of it in my life. I mean, never. Not even freshman year when I ended up in the hospital, or that time I had a triple does of the flu or even when I got sick just before the exchange student showed up. (And let me tell you, I was sicker than a dog, then.) The chair was comfortable enough to sit in, but I really needed to lie down. It was kind of cool, how accommodating they were for us. Then again, their job is to make us more comfortable and to help us get better, so I guess it makes sense.

It was actually kind of funny, because we had to explain to them what had happened and caused this to happen, which meant telling them EMTs and Paramedics and cops and firefighters that we were Curious George and Strawberry Shortcake. And even though they knew our names (they asked us for our real ones, to check lucidity and for their reports), they kept referring to us as our character.

“Oh yeah, Strawberry Shortcake’s mom is sending someone over to pick her up.”

“Curious George is in the other room; how’s her BP?”

That was pretty funny. And there was one young man who made me laugh a bunch of times, which made me feel so much better, even if I was alternating between roasting (from the heat exhaustion) and freezing (from the building’s AC). Eventually my Daddy came to pick me up, though there had been a great deal of phone tag involving me, the phones of convenient paramedics, and my family members. xD

I missed my EFR class tonight, though, but it’s understandable. And I wasn’t in the condition to drive, anyways. Not really. And I may or may not go into work tomorrow. I’m thinking I will, but hey, y’never know.

I feel better now, though. My stomach is still achy and grumbly and upset at me, and my head is still a little off, but it’s all manageable levels. Nothing I haven’t worked with before. ^^

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caitlin on June 27th 2008 in Uncategorized

Pandemic

Another shot screamed through the air, rending earth and flesh and atmosphere as it came apart. The shell came entirely too close to the young soldier prone upon the broken dirt, and the intense young woman kneeling over him. Neither of them noticed, though; the soldier because of the pain from the shrapnel peppering his body in a macabre mockery of a dinner roast, and she because at that moment that wounded young man was the entirety of her scope of focus.

Cursing fiercely under breath, the woman grabbed for the large pack dumped unceremoniously on the ground beside her and began ripping through it, discarding harshly what she did not need; and yet, for all the violence of her movements, she did not throw the supplies away. Finding what she sought, the woman tore the items from the leather and canvas satchel and whirled back to the bleeding soldier, setting her long black curls to swirling about her like a midnight nimbus.

“You…sh…sh…should g…go,” the young man gasped out, looking up at her through one dazed eye. The other was sealed shut with a mix of dirt and congealing blood that trickled down from a gash across his forehead.

“Shut up,” the woman replied with a bite to her tone. Her hands moved feverishly, slapping bandages over his torso and abdomen, applying pressure and gauze where needed.

“’El…” the young man began. A spasm of pain stopped his words, choking them off into pained coughing that sounded far too wet for her peace of mind.

“I told you,” she said waspishly, “to shut the fuck up. Now don’t open your mouth again; I’ve only put a temp on you until I can get you back to camp.”

“’Elie…”

“Shut. The fuck. Up.” The words were growled at him, followed by a sharp glare from eyes the same angry gray as thunderclouds streaked by the blue of lightning flashes. “Sergeant,” she added as an afterthought. “I am not leaving you here. Now hold on.” And with that, she levered him into an upright position – gently, though, oh so gently! – and lifted him to a position where she could easily hold him against her as she stood. The pack had already been placed on her back during their brief (and largely one-sided) ‘argument’, and she let out a deep breath before moving as fast as she could with her cargo across the shattered and broken field.

“’Elie,” the soldier in her arms moaned. Because of the extent of his wounds, there was no way to hold him without touching some kind of wound, no matter how careful that touch was. Most likely, though, he was about to try to be ‘noble’ again and tell her to leave him here.

She snorted. To hell with that idea, and to hell with nobility while she was at it!

“Don’t even start, Robert,” she snarled, navigating around a particularly nasty crater, her heart pounding from adrenaline, fatigue, and a hyper-aware survival instinct. After all, she was functioning for two, now. And apparently the blonde soldier carried across her shoulders took the hint, because he remained silent. Or he was unconscious.

Either way worked for her, really. At least he was still and quiet, and that made navigating the screaming, throbbing madness of the battlefield easier. She knew Robert was still alive; the sergeant’s heart was thumping in a reassuringly solid way against her own, the two falling into close beats.

“Don’t even think about dying on me, Robby Boy,” the raven-haired medic panted, even though the person she was talking to probably couldn’t hear her.

Or maybe he could.

“Doctor’s…orders, huh?” came the weak rejoinder with a pathetic attempt at a chuckle and verbal leer. It failed quite miserably, but she smiled anyways.

“Damn straight,” she replied, in a gasp that even so communicated her grin. Avoiding both hostile fire and stray friendly bullets and climbing over broken terrain and other bodies with her medpack and Robert was proving to be a serious workout even with her training and practice regimen.

Maybe I should suggest it to the Training Master, she thought with a wry mental laugh, thinking absently how much the trainees in boot camp would hate her – or the training Master, really. Anyways, it seemed she’d have to step it up a level. But first she had to survive getting Robert back to camp for treatment. Thank God she’d just caught sight of the first markers. Only one more mile to go…

“’Elie, wake up.”

The voice penetrated the numbing fog around her mind, and disregarding the years since her service and the hampering injuries she’d received in that time, Aurelie Derinou snapped awake, completely and instantly ready to deal with anything – enemies, allies, her twin…

“What’s wrong, Kendra?”

The young woman crouching over Aurelie with a concerned expression marring the beauty of her face was one of the few remaining people alive in the world who could inspire that question involuntarily, as well as the genuine hinting of care behind the words. Not only that, but she was also the only person in the world who would not find herself pinned to the ground with a matte black combat knife at her throat for being so close to Aurelie when she woke. Kendra was the only person in existence who could ‘control’ Aurelie with a single word or look.

Then again, Kendra Derinou was the good twin.

Kendra reached out towards her twin’s face, now that she knew the other woman was fully conscious and it was safe to touch her. “You were talking in your sleep,” she whispered, some part of her heart squeezing and breaking all over again as she felt the roughly smooth texture of the scars on Aurelie’s face. Once, it had been nearly impossible to tell the two of them apart. Now even a half-blind person could tell without hesitation. “And shifting. You…you were making faces, too. And cursing.”

Aurelie sighed, and released her grip on the knife holster she kept on her thigh (among other places) on the outside of her pants. Even so, she still did not relax her guard completely. In the hell-pit the world had become, Aurelie knew she wouldn’t last long if she didn’t keep a constant ear tuned for potential trouble. She sat up then, grimacing as other old scars pulled and protested the movement, and moved her loose black curls out of her face from where they’d escaped to during the night. The loose strands made her look unusually feminine and fragile, but only for a moment.

“I think it was a dream, ‘Elie,” Kendra said, almost hesitantly. She knew Aurelie had no memory of much of anything. That was part of why she had been discharged from the Army, after all. Honorably, of course; in fact, with a great deal of honors! And while she had more than earned those honors and the discharge, it was a bittersweet thing.

“A dream?” Aurelie blinked, raising one hand to the side of her head. She stopped halfway through the motion, her fingers curling almost sorrowfully, regretfully. “I don’t remember,” she said in a carefully neutral voice tone that broke Kendra’s heart all over again.

“Oh. Well, it seemed like a pretty…well, intense one,” Kendra finished lamely. Aurelie regarded her twin through the gray darkness of near-dawn within the small cave they’d sheltered in, her stormy eyes uncommonly emotional. For her, at any rate.

“It’s alright, Kendra,” the ex-field medic said softly, taking her twin’s hand and holding it. Aurelie knew, in that odd, unexplainable way twins had, that Kendra somehow felt guilty for Aurelie’s memory loss and her seeming inability to recover much more than basics of her life. She didn’t say anything else, but then, she didn’t have to. Kendra knew exactly what Aurelie meant, even if Aurelie herself didn’t know how to clearly express it.

The moment was broken shortly by the sudden intrusion of rumbling from Kendra’s stomach. Kendra flushed, her freckles disappearing in the rising tide of red, and dropped Aurelie’s hand to clap her own over the noisy organ. The tips of Aurelie’s lips twitched in the smallest of smiles, softening her stormy eyes to an affectionate mix of light, dawning colors. But only for a moment. That was all the time she needed to rise to her feet, her dark curls tumbling about her shoulders and hips and, in the early pre-dawn light, giving her the appearance of some epic heroine. Not in beauty (though one could call her attractive), but in the alert way she held herself, and the rolling, ready fluidity of her movement, even with her crippled hip and leg and the slight canting of her body to the left that those injuries caused. Then the moment passed, and she was merely mortal again.

Aurelie took the few necessary steps to reach her pack and then crouched down, her left leg slightly extended as the hip joint protested, courtesy of a blow to her hip towards the end of her tour that had fractured the joint and never healed properly. Along with her amnesia and other wounds, it had been a large contributor to her discharge from the Armed Services. She flipped open the plasti-leather flap and began to reach for the rations stored within.

And even that moment was broken by the faint sound of gunshot, carried to them on the light morning wind.

“Fuck!”

Gunfire, shots, screaming, shattering, tearing things apart! Fire, flames, plumes of dirt and mud and earth and blood and people. Shells shrieking through the air, near subsonic ripples of the before and after explosion rocking through her brain, the ground unstable beneath her feet. Pain, death, blood, wounded. Soldiers. Faces, blurring, blurring, blending into one, into none, into shadows.

Instantly, Kendra found herself shoved unceremoniously into the small cave they’d found the previous night (if one could really call that rocky hole a ‘cave’), Aurelie at its opening, knife ready and eyes focused with deadly intent. The brief spurt of gunfire had long since passed into memory, or so it seemed to the two women.

They waited there for what seemed an indeterminable amount of time. Neither of them voiced any complaint, however. With the way the world had turned out after the War and the subsequent release of the Pandemic, no one still surviving ever complained about waiting to make sure the coast was clear.

Kendra shuddered inside the stone protection of her ‘cave’ as she thought on the Pandemic. An unknown biological agent, it had been unleashed towards the end of the Final War, a decade long struggle between countries started for God knows what reason. But the Pandemic ended it, and definitively. There simply weren’t enough people to fight with each other when that disease came sweeping around like a scythe through the harvest. There were no warning signs to its appearance in your home; by the time you knew it was there it was already too late. It was an efficient killer, though by no means an invisible or solitary one.

But then Kendra was jolted out of her thoughts as Aurelie made an exasperated noise deep in the back of her throat before shoving the combat knife back into its thigh sheath and straightening from her protective stance in front of the cave opening.

“Robert!” Aurelie’s voice rang out through the cold dawn air, clearly carrying the angry vibrations to the ears of who ever she was speaking to. “You fucking idiot! Leave a goddamn note when you go out so I don’t fucking try and kill you!”

Inside the small cave, Kendra winced at the blatant evidence of her twin’s irritation. Aurelie only really swore when upset in some manner; the rest of the time she was rather well spoken. Then Kendra perked up and crawled toward the entrance, shifting a bit behind the blockaded opening, trying to peer around her twin’s body to catch sight of the young man currently on the receiving end of Aurelie’s notorious temper. The man in question was coming up the side of the small outcropping, a wide grin on his face and a hand sheepishly scratching at the back of his blonde head. Aurelie moved out of the way then, letting Kendra crawl out of the cave completely. Robert’s grin grew when he saw her, and he winked one cornflower blue eye before focusing his attention back on the irritated ex-medic beside Kendra.

“Aww, Aurelie, if I knew you cared that much I’d have done it sooner!” Robert quipped, those same cornflower orbs sparkling up at the woman. Aurelie crossed her arms over her chest and glared down at him.

Wet, hot, sticky blood…everywhere. …A dream?

“Robert,” she began, “what the fucking hell am I supposed to do if you go and get your sorry ass killed because you went off hunting alone and didn’t leave a goddamned note!” Roiling silver eyes stared into deep blue ones. “What the hell am I supposed to do then? Huh?”

Robert had the grace to look sheepish in the face of the woman’s anger. He knew how very dear he and Kendra were to Aurelie. He had been a little shocked to find out that he was even thought of in the same breath as Aurelie’s twin sister, but it left his heart feeling so very warm and full when he did think of it. So he understood very well where this sudden burst of irritation was coming from.

Aurelie cared. So very, very much, though she would swear up and down that she didn’t, vehemently deny any kind of suggestion that she might actually have a heart and be capable of functioning as a normal human being instead of only as a stone-cold fighter. Both Kendra and Robert wished she wouldn’t think like that, that she would see herself through their eyes instead of the dark lenses the world had given her. But even that darkness was a part of her, and they loved her all the more for it.

So it was a much more subdued Robert that clambered over the crest, eyes shadowed. “I’m sorry,” he said sincerely, slipping his gun back into its holster. “I… just… I’m sorry.” He was close enough to the women that when he reached out his hand to Aurelie, he was able to lay it on her upper right arm, a mix of several emotions carried with that simple movement. Aurelie tolerated the contact for several moments before dragging her gaze away from Robert’s and shrugging his hand off uncomfortably, as one might to a blanket they wanted very much to just wrap themselves in, but couldn’t.

“Just don’t forget next time, dammit,” she muttered, turning from him. A vaguely embarrassed expression crossed over her face, as if she were a schoolgirl being flirted with for the first time. But the expression was quickly masked by her usual one, though if Robert looked close enough, he could still see the remnants of it in the very backs of her eyes. Kendra smiled softly at her sister’s back, though the expression was tinged with sorrow. Oh, how Kendra wished she could turn back time and change the place where that final blow landed! If Aurelie’s captors had only hit a different place…but then, that different place might have killed her. That’s what the original blow was meant to do in the first place. And it did succeed, after a fashion – it killed the woman Aurelie had once been, but gave birth to this new one. Kendra shoved those thoughts aside in favor of doing what a civilian like her could do, and started towards Robert to check him for injury, but Robert laughed and waved away her concern, ruffling her hair affectionately.

“Ah, I’m okay, K.D. No worries!” He flashed her a bright, happy grin as if he were twelve years old and showing off a brand new toy. Kendra smiled right back, though hers was out of relief. She always worried about her two companions. She’d worried about them when they were in the Army, during the War. She’d worried when they’d come home, Robert with old wounds still healing and Aurelie fighting the pallor of death. She’d worried as they’d healed, when it became painfully obvious that Aurelie had lost more than just blood and bone and flesh, and had worried when the world went to hell in a hand basket. She worried even more now, because she felt so very useless next to Robert and Aurelie with only her paltry civilian medical skills to offer.

“Alright, Robert. What the hell caught your attention this morning?” Aurelie said, derailing Kendra’s train of thought. Aurelie was many things now – lame, crippled, cold and vicious, but what she was not was stupid or blind. She knew that look on Kendra’s face, the way she nibbled on her lower lip and her eyes darkened. While Aurelie might be good only for war and bloodshed now, a necessary evil to return the world to a safer place for angels like her older twin, she knew – and puzzled over – the fact that Kendra somehow managed to find some way to belittle herself and her contribution to their small group.

That, and she really did want to know just what the hell had distracted Robert from his normal morning watch.

“Oh, that,” Robert said, with another grin and a sheepish scratch to the back of his head. “Ah! Oh shit!” he yelped, dropping the hand and scampering back in the direction of where he’d returned from earlier. “You can come out now, it’s safe!” he called to…someone, apparently. Whoever – or whatever – had pulled him away.

Aurelie gave him a flat look, and her voice as she spoke was deceptively – almost frighteningly – calm.

“There’s someone out there – someone healthy – and you forgot about them?”

“Eh heh…” Robert laughed sheepishly.

“Fucking idiot,” Aurelie muttered, glaring at the blonde. “How the hell you survived boot camp is some kind of damn miracle.” Robert only grinned back at her.

“Sorry, sorry,” he said. “But I got distracted by you.” He winked one deep blue orb at Aurelie who returned the flirtatious gesture with a deadpan but slightly flushed expression and undisguised glare. Once again, Robert just laughed it off.

“E-excuse me?” came a small, trembling voice. All three travelers turned to face the speaker, each with a differing expression. Kendra with polite curiosity, Aurelie with indifferent but blatant suspicion, and Robert with a large inviting grin. “I…I…” The speaker, a young man (quite young by the looks of him – he barely had an Adam’s apple) stammered, twisting his hands before him.

He was nervous, that was obvious. Kept twisting his hands and licking his lips, beady little rat eyes flicking to every possible exit, but there were none. Not for him. Not for her. Not for them.

Aurelie blinked. A memory? Triggered by the simple motion of hand wringing. She wasn’t sure she liked that. And the boy’s stammering was starting to get on her nerves.

“What? Get on with it already, dammit!” Aurelie rolled her eyes and crossed her arms over her chest, giving the boy a heavy stare. He jumped at the barking sound of her voice, flinched, and then wrung his hands even harder as he stumbled over his next words.

“I-I-I heard y-y-you could help us!”

***

The boy led the three down a largely deserted street toward the small, wooded mountain town of Angel’s Camp, Kendra at his side chattering casually and easily with him, trying to draw more information about the town and the problem, and really, about the boy himself. When he’d blurted out that there was a small group of Infected near his home in response to Aurelie’s query on exactly what kind of help he needed, there had been mixed reactions. He already knew the three were Hunters of a sort – after all, Robert had met the boy by shooting one down, and the boy hoped they would be able to get rid of the few nearby. Robert and Aurelie had been all for it, or rather, Robert had been all for it. Aurelie hadn’t really cared one way or the other as long as Kendra was kept safe.

Surprisingly enough, it had been Kendra who voiced the only objections to the idea, though she quickly countered herself and now seemed perfectly fine with the situation. Aurelie kept one eye trained on her though. Just to be safe. The boy might profess gratitude for their help, but it wouldn’t be long before the now natural distrust of Hunters returned to his mind. In fact, Aurelie could already see tiny hints of it, though only around her or Robert. Mostly her. But then, she was used to such reactions, and they never fazed her.

“So your council thinks there are three Infected near Angel’s Camp?” Kendra’s voice cut gently through Aurelie’s dark musings, and since it was worthwhile information, the woman listened in.

The boy nodded enthusiastically, his hair flying with every movement. “Th-that’s what they th-th-think,” he said, gulping. “It…it’s scary.” His voice dropped to a whisper, revealing just how very young he still was in a world that no longer allowed for youth. A long-buried part of Aurelie – a part forgotten – stirred.

“Mama! Mama, where are you?” A cry, sobbing, high but sweet, yet tinged with the bitter, coppery tang of near hysterical fear, rising above the white, static noise of battle. “Mama!”

Aurelie shook her head violently. The flashes came often today, but she didn’t remember any of them. They all looked familiar, felt familiar…and once again, her thoughts were interrupted by voices.

“Ben!”

“Ma!” The boy – Ben – gave Kendra a glance then scampered forward to be engulfed in his mother’s ample embrace. “I-I-It’s okay, Ma, I f-found Hunters!” he stammered out to her after pushing back from her arms. “They s-said they’d h-help us!”

The reaction was the same as it always was. Hope and gratitude and awe mixed with complete and abject fear and distrust. Eventually the fear always won, no matter how grateful the people were to the Hunter. The crowd had drawn closer in the last few moments, and similar expressions crossed their faces. Some had even gasped and quickly covered their mouths; a slight flush of embarrassment coloring their cheeks while others shrank back an instinctive step.

“You’ll really clean them up?” asked a member of the crowd, probably voicing the thoughts of the entire community. Aurelie snorted and crossed her arms over her chest once more.

“Why the hell else would we have traveled all the way over here?” There was almost a biting edge to her question. Robert snickered into his palm, attempting to disguise the amusement as a cough. Kendra shot them both a semi-horrified look.

“Aurelie!” she hissed before turning to face the crowd once more. “Yes, we’re here to quarantine the area.”

I’m here to quarantine the place. You and the idiot are going to stay here,” Aurelie said, her hard tone daring Kendra to argue. Either Kendra was much feistier this time than usual, or she missed the warning signs because she opened her mouth to do just that. Aurelie cut her off before she could even finish inhaling.

“It’s only three of the damn things, Kendra. Don’t give me any guff about it; I’m quarantining them. You and Robert are going to resupply and rest. Got it?” That flinty gaze was hardly ever leveled at Kendra, and that very fact helped shock her into silence, which was exactly what Aurelie had been angling for. Robert, damn him, had caught on immediately to her thought, and flashed her a grin before laying a hand on Kendra’s shoulder.

“C’mon, K.D.,” he said, tugging gently. “It’s not like the place needs to be completely disinfected. We’ll let Aurelie have her party, and we can pick up some pretty things for her to wear, okay?”

“Like hell you will!” The glare coming from those thunderous orbs could have set a lesser man on fire. Kendra only giggled as Robert sent Aurelie back a grin as wide and innocent as one would presume a saint’s to be. But it relaxed Kendra enough to nod her assent to her twin, and she caught the quick flash of relief that crossed the other woman’s face, followed by an even briefer glimpse of affection. Kendra’s smile grew then, and though she still worried (she always would), she would be okay letting her sister go off alone.

“Be careful,” Kendra whispered, her own affection softening her features. Aurelie gave her a quick, cocksure smirk before turning toward the people of Angel’s camp.

“Direction?” she demanded without preamble. After extracting the general location of the Infected, as well as several more thoughts on how many there were, she set out. Her loose curls swung against the dark fabric of her doctor’s coat, skirting about the rifle slung across her back like a curtain, revealing careful flashes of the weapon. And then she was gone, out of sight, passed behind a copse of trees. Kendra turned back to Robert, looking up at the blonde man who was gazing after her sister in a way she knew so very well. After all, she felt a similar emotion whenever she thought of Aurelie as well. Kendra sent a silent prayer to God that the woman she and Robert loved would return safely to them both, then squared her shoulders and faced the townspeople once more.

***

It had only taken an hour or so for Aurelie to find the small group of Infected that had so worried the people of Angel’s Camp. They weren’t all that far away, but the heavy foresting and steep hillsides of their chosen area compensated for that.

Aurelie peered down through the small pair of field binoculars she kept in one of her spare pouches. There they were, all right; the signs of an Infected’s den were unmistakable. Of course, it helped that they were all out in the open, with one particularly down a good sight line. She gave the area one last slow, sweeping check, this time scanning the area for possible signs of any more. With the Infected, you never really knew what they were thinking, or how many there were in a place. And when a Hunter disinfects, they take as many precautions as they can to keep their chances of contracting the Pandemic as low as possible. And that meant knowing exactly how many Infected were being taken care of.

One, two, three…looks like there might be a fourth, or more, Aurelie thought to herself as she folded the binocs closed and slipped them back into an inside pocket of her old doctor’s coat. Looks like the people back at Angel’s Camp need to learn how to count – or not to fucking lie.

They were all well into the end of the third stage at the very least, seeing as there was the tell-tale tint of blue on their fingers. Aurelie had made sure to check them carefully for the signs, because these days any kind of traveler was regarded as probable Infected just on principle. And as little as she usually cared, the last thing she wanted to do was kill innocent people. She wasn’t that heartless. But if there were blue fingers, suspicious bruises and a mad gleam to their eyes, Aurelie would have no problem ending them.

And every single person (if you could call them people anymore) down there had blue-tinted fingers and dark, spotty bruises. Besides, most people who contracted the Pandemic didn’t steal away until they’d already entered the fourth stage, and then only if they survived the first few weeks of that.

As Aurelie watched her ‘patients’ (there was a kind of morbid humor in using medical terminology in these kinds of situations), she began plotting a strategy. She never just walked down among the enemy, guns blazing. That was the fastest way to get a third eye and a dirt nap, and that was the last thing Aurelie needed. Besides, she needed to finish this quickly and get back to Kendra and Robert. She wasn’t comfortable leaving them alone for very long, though she had said she’d do this herself. Kendra had needed the rest, and they had needed the supplies. And someone had to watch Kendra, and Robert was the only person (other than herself) that she trusted to do that job, and do it well.

Bringing that wandering part of her mind back under control and into the situation, Aurelie was looking back over her strategy when one of the Infected below moved in some small, insignificant way. But the effect of that movement was anything but insignificant.

She was going to die. One part of her was sad about that, about the fact that her life was about to end and no one she loved was nearby. Another part of her was angry, pissed as hell at these people who saw her as nothing more than a specimen in a lab, as some kind of over-large Petri dish that could be easily exchanged for another. And another part, pushed back and held under iron control, was terrified. That part of her screamed and thrashed and wept, wanting to beg for these mad scientists to leave her alone, to let her go, leave her with her life.

But she had too much pride to ever give in to that. So she fueled the fear into more anger, building that fire hotter until it was all that raged within her and warmed her. They wanted to kill her by using her as Patient Zero? Fine. She’d haunt their asses until they couldn’t fucking think anymore, because every thought would be of her.

And even as she made herself this promise, that same small voice that had been gibbering in terror before now whispered in a heart-broken sound. So she modified that promise – she’d haunt these fucking scientists to their graves, but she’d let Kendra and Robert know she still loved them, was still with them.

It was the thought of those two that was going to get her through this if she had any intention of surviving. And as fun as haunting these bastards sounded, she’d much rather just be with her lover, her troop, her family…and her twin. Damn straight she was going to live through this.

Aurelie grabbed at her head, eyes wide and lips parted. Thank God she hadn’t been holding anything in her hands at that moment, as she probably would have given herself a nice shiner right then, if not possibly knocked herself out. It was an undignified prospect for one such as she, but right now she had more important things on her mind.

She remembered. It wasn’t much, and yet it was. She knew that memory, knew it was hers, that she had lived that. It wasn’t a pleasant memory – there was still a bitter taste in her mouth from the fear and the anger – but it was hers. No one had had to tell it to her, no flash had revealed it to her only to leave her unsatisfied with the vague, unsettling feeling of déjà vu. She’d just known.

And directly on the heels of this revelation came a burning desire to just rip apart the things down there. This particular desire, Aurelie was unsure of its origin. And yet, she couldn’t seem to pull it back like she did everything else. It was almost as if the Infected down there, the Pandemic, meant something to her personally. Something terrible – and she wanted revenge for it. The only thing that kept her from going down there and just ripping into them with her knives and one of her revolvers was the thought that she had survived, and that Kendra and Robert were expecting her to come back.

Maybe that hadn’t been the best thought at the moment, because it rekindled to anger. Whatever she’d just remembered had almost taken her away from those two, and somehow, the Pandemic and the Infected were connected to it.

Aurelie stood then, drawing the rifle she’d been issued upon her entry to the Army, and took careful aim. One squeeze of the trigger, and one of the heads below exploded into a rain of bone, brain, and blood. And all the rest now knew there was a guest for supper. Lucky thing Aurelie had brought enough lead and steel for all, because as it turned out, there had been more than three.

Aurelie had stopped using her rifle as a firearm after going through the first magazine. She’d taken her time shooting them, planting three- and five-round bursts in the first six. By then the Infected had figured out where she was shooting them from, and had gotten close enough for that strange, vengeful feeling to rise again – and Aurelie gave into it. Changing her grip on the rifle to hold it like it was a club, she swung it through the last three Infected like she were holding a golf club and they were over-large, moving balls. For crazy, dying people, they sure bled a lot. But then, Aurelie was used to blood.

“Bitch! You can’t stop the cleansing!” One of them gurgled even as the madness and life bled from another’s eyes.

One of the Infected had gotten around behind her, grabbing at the loose end of Aurelie’s ponytail and pulling. Aurelie grunted, smacking the one before her across the face with the butt of her rifle, using it something like a paddle. There was a wet, almost meaty noise like that of a watermelon hitting the ground and her rifle butt came away dark, wetly glistening in a disturbing way, but she was more focused on the one holding her hair.

“Can’t stop it, can’t stop it…All fall, all join or all be cleansed!” The thing’s breath was foul, sickly-sweet like the scent rotting meat and flowers. Even as Aurelie’s stomach roiled at the stench, it seized with the feeling that lead was sitting in it.

Kendra. Aurelie’s eyes widened once more, an unfamiliar feeling grasping at her heart, making her feel short of breath – terror. Kendra was in trouble, Aurelie knew it. She didn’t have time to waste here anymore – Kendra needed her!

Growling, with the extra strength born of desperation she jabbed backwards with the muzzle of the rifle into the thing’s stomach. It worked to loosen his hold upon her hair, giving her enough slack to yank the locks free. She pivoted in place, bringing her right leg up, knee crossed back to her left hip before snapping the kick out, planting a heavy combat boot in his face and pulping his lips into a bloody mess, breaking his nose. Really, she smashed the thing, splintering the nasal bone, though at the same time the very angle of her side kick also shoved those bone splinters up into his brain, killing him almost instantly.

Aurelie didn’t bother to stay around any longer then – she’d done what had been asked to do, and the Pandemic wasn’t able to cross the species barrier, so it was safe to leave the bodies for carrion. Besides, she didn’t have time to waste. Pausing only long enough to pick up her spent casings and deposit them in a pocket, Aurelie set out at a run back through the trees toward Angel’s Camp.

What she saw when she got there both frightened and infuriated her. Two men unconscious on the ground, clearly the losers in whatever had started this altercation. Robert, struggling with one of the townspeople for control of a shovel that was obviously intended to harm both him and Kendra. And while her heart seized for some odd reason when she saw that, Aurelie knew Robert could take care of himself. What truly angered her was the sight of Kendra sprawled on the ground, a man standing over her, one meaty fist raised to strike. Aurelie was having none of that. Eyes hardening and darkening to the angry black of a thundercloud, she strode forward, hands tightening on her rifle.

CRACK!

Kendra’s eyes popped open at the sharp noise, and stared up at the man who still had his fist raised over her. But it looked like there was something sticking out behind his head…her eyes widened as she recognized the familiar shape of that rifle muzzle, and a large grin began to form.

“Aurelie!” cried Kendra, that wide smile spreading across her face. She scrambled to her feet, uncaring as the man toppled over, wide eyes lifeless and blank. Aurelie stood over them, the rifle she’d just used to butt-stroke the man cradled across her body in both hands, eyes flint chips as she stared down at the dead man who had dared to raise his hand against Kendra. He would never do so again. Those same flint chips softened when they flickered over Kendra, fluttering closed in a brief sign of relief before opening once more.

“Aurelie?” Robert whispered, his voice small and tremulous. He paused, still holding the shovel haft away from his body as his head whipped around to stare in the same direction as Kendra. “Aurelie?” he whispered again, the darkness and anger beginning to drain from his eyes to be replaced by joy and love as he saw the woman standing there. The poor man attacking him let the shovel haft slip from nerveless fingers; too busy staring at Aurelie in a mixture of awe and abject terror.

She stood there, tall and proud like some ancient war goddess, a cold expression carved onto her face as if fresh from stone. Bright splashes of crimson streaked her body, her face, her clothing like a macabre mockery of war paint, a silent, screaming testament to the power held within her frame. Flinty eyes never wavered in their focus as she surveyed the huddling mass of humanity about them, her top lip curling into the tiniest of sneers.

Everyone except for Kendra and Robert shrank back as Aurelie thrust out her hand. There was nothing there that looked remotely threatening – unless, of course, you counted the fact that she was more than irritated, held an Army-issue rifle in the other hand, and the one being held in mid-air was clenched into a fist. Another gasp and flinch ran through the small crowd as she slowly opened her fingers.

Clink. Cli-clink. Cli-cli-cling-clink. CLINK. TINKtinktinglnglnglnglngk…

The spent bullet casings tumbled end over glistening end to rattle against the paved street. They spun and rolled a bit as they came to rest, spreading away from Aurelie’s feet like morbid ripples on an asphalt pond.

“Aurelie?” Kendra asked, creeping closer and laying a hand on her sister’s shoulder, her eyes stormier than usual from the concern darkening the orbs. “You got all of them?”

“Yea,” Aurelie began, almost in a whisper, her storm-gray eyes focused only on the spinning bronze casings, her voice eerily level and calm, “though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil.” She slowly raised her head and speared the gathered members of the town with a cold gaze, her voice never changing in pitch, tone, or inflection. “Because I am the meanest son of a bitch in the entire damned valley.”

There was no reply. But then, none was necessary. Aurelie kept her eyes trained on the crowd, still holding her rifle, fingertips twitching as if caressing it. No one in the crowd moved as Robert scooped up the large pack that held the supplies he’d bought with Kendra, and they stayed just as still even when Aurelie took her gaze from them to give Robert and Kendra a thorough scanning. So it was only those two that saw the bright relief in her eyes behind the dark storm of her anger, and neither of them would reveal her secret. Then the three began the long walk back down the mountain.

“I’ll always come for you. You know that?”

Robert and Kendra blinked at the very uncharacteristic question coming from Aurelie. But then Robert smiled.

“Of course, Aurelie. We trust you.”

Aurelie nodded at that, relieved, and silently promised once again to protect them.

END

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caitlin on March 21st 2008 in Fiction, Original Fiction, Uncategorized

Dr. Jones

I have come to the realization that I whine entirely too much.

Yes, I’m accident prone and hurt myself quite often, but I don’t really need to tell everyone about it. It’s not like each hurt is serious anyways, they just add up and get annoying. (Er, ‘painful’.) But still, once it’s mentioned, that’s really all that needs to be said about it unless it gets aggravated. I really should just kind of keep my mouth shut, no?

So. Yes, my back hurts. Yes, on occasion it hurts to even stand or sit because my spine is being a pain. Yes, the bones of my spine are shifting at the most mundane of movements and generally when they shouldn’t. And yes, it does do strange things to the nerves in my legs, hips, and lower back, and yes, it is doing something to my ribs. But it’s not that much, and there. Done. No more complaining!

Yes, there is this odd, throbbing pulse in my head that usually leaves me momentarily paralyzed until it passes. Well, to be honest, it wasn’t a pulse - nor quite this frequent - until I hurt my back and hit my head. But now I’m getting used to it, which is good! (Kristin said I was being stupid when I said that was good, but I rather think it’s a ‘good thing’ to not be suddenly frozen in the middle of the highway, no? Because this thing always happens at the most inopportune times…) So when it does start up, I don’t freeze, and can continue on with my day. Well, unless it really does start to do the pulsing thing. Then yes, I do freeze and grab my head because that still hurts. But the flashes are okay.

So. There, done. No need to mention them again until I get to the doctor. Besides, I have an active enough imagination that no one would ever really believe what I say anyways! ^^ Hahaha! That, and it’s not like I need to worry my parents or others anymore anyways. I’ve brought more than enough chaos in my life.

Good God, I’m depressing. I’m just going to shut up until I have something good to say. Which might not be until sometime during or after Spring Break, but that’s the way it’ll be, then.

Urf. I’ve put it off long enough - I should go finish that gender theory paper. I can’t afford not to have it done, seeing as I didn’t actually do all that well on my Sociology midterm.

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caitlin on March 19th 2008 in Uncategorized

Dayenu

Yay!

Steven is perfectly okay! He’s out of the hospital, back to his ’self’, and…Mmm. I can’t even say. ^^ He was even at Seder yesterday, and had his humor, too! I wasn’t expecting to see him there (though I’d hoped) and was so happy to see him there! He was a little skinnier than usual, and a little pale, still, but he still smiled like he always has and charmed everyone there like usual. Mrs. Schlacte looked well, too. A little skinny, maybe, and kind of tired, but she didn’t look like anything was seriously wrong.

I have never been so happy to have been proved wrong in my entire life. I will gladly feel like this forever, because even though I’m a little embarrassed by my pessimistic fears of earlier, the knowledge makes me that much happier because they’re okay!

(I’m not making much sense, I think, but that’s fine with me.)

Thus all is well with the world. Now, if only I could finish my gender theory paper…Oh, that thing’s a nightmare. But I’ll get it!

Interesting fact I picked up the other day. Y’know how we dye eggs around Easter? Well, there is an actual reason, and yes, this reason really does relate to the Church and not to marketing and pagan fertility rights! Mary Magdalene, the first person to see the risen Christ, had gone to Caesar to tell him this and convince him that Jesus was the Lord. (Or something like that, I forget the exact particulars of their conversation.) And of course Caesar didn’t believe her! “A man can rise from the dead just like that cooked egg can turn red.” Now, he said that in sarcasm and such, but lo and behold, when Mary lifted the egg from the table, it turned red!

And that’s why we dye eggs at Easter. ^^

. . .

I hurt myself again, too. Gah. I was chasing Sarah, because we were playing Capture the Flag yesterday at Seder. Of course, I was chasing her down a rather steep, overly grassed, bumpy, and very wet hill at night, in not the best of shoes. So I was already slipping around and stuff, but that the bottom of this little hill is a cement ditch, and because the grass is so long, you can’t really see it. Well, because I couldn’t see it, I misjudged my jump and instead of going over it, I landed with one foot in it, but at angle. So I pitched forward, rolling my ankle, somersaulting through the air, and rolling a few times and coming to a stop just under the side of a very large, very solid, and thankfully raised, white van.

I didn’t even discover that my leg was bleeding until my leg began to itch because the drying blood was sealing my pants to my skin. Ooooo, that was painful, peeling it off. But it wasn’t as bad once it was cleaned. ‘Course, I only added to the pain in my back. Which is kind of funny, really, because ITC had been that morning and SaBuNim Mike (who’s known about my back since the day I hurt it) cautioned me to take care and not hurt myself anymore. -snicker- Not even twelve hours later and I’m on the ground with people asking me if I need to be carried into the house.

Stupid DIDS. Bloody accident prone, aren’t I? At least I don’t run with knives or scissors! Ha!

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caitlin on March 16th 2008 in Uncategorized

Marigold Spring

Mmmm. I’ve just realized how very ‘bad’ something like a blog is for a person like me. I really don’t think I do/am anything interesting (though for some reason the people around me seem to have the exact opposite line of thought), so updating something like this (or, God forbid, filling out an About Me section) is actually kind of…hard, sometimes. Unless, y’know, I’m in a uber bad mood or totally depressed or something happened that even I think it interesting. Or I’m just really, really hyper.

I have been having a rather good streak lately when it comes to plot ideas, which is nice. I’ve got a bunch of things tumbling around in my head, though I’m still trying to focus more on Pandemic. I’d really to get that thing started, or at least try to figure out an arch line and general layout of the books. I mean, I know I’ve got two. For sure. But do I want to extend that? Like, Woot and Huzzah is all about Aurelie and creating the Pandemic, but do I want to split Pandemic into smaller parts like Tolkein’s Lord of the Rings series? Like, Pandemic One could be all about Aurelie, Robert, and Kendra going out to be Medics and Aurelie getting her memory back and [discovering the cure?]. And Pandemic Two could be them actually following through on it and kendra getting it and all.

I don’t know. xP

And then I’ve just got some generic ideas running around my brain, like this one involving Gods and Goddesses…But I’m still trying to work that one into coherence, because I’m not quite sure about it yet. I mean, I know the basic want I’ve got for it, and the basic line and plot. Twin Goddesses, one good one evil, coming to earth and doing the Jesus Christ thing (just without the whole revealing it to the world and dying bit). Of course, they came for two different reasons; the evil one because she wants to destroy things and stuff, and the good twin to stop her. Good twin (as a human) goes to Government (I think I want to set it in America…Or maybe in a made-up country. Might make the whole thing fantasy…) and tells them she can help, yadda yadda, ends up married to the agent/cop/soldier/what-have-you man in charge for her own protection and to make it look less suspicious. (Yeah yeah, I’m working on making that one plausible. xP) Of course, she’s got Gods and Goddesses working with her and is doing everything she can to appear completely human and keep her husband - and the world - from knowing who/what she is, AND from knowing the same things about her twin.

And…yeah. Kind of stuck from there on fleshing it out anymore. I’ve got the names for the Goddesses; evil is Ziata Cerridwen Morganne and the good is Renae Zandra Thérése. Er, well, those are there human names. Except not really. Ziata’s name is the same for both forms, and so is Renae’s, really…Humans just call them different things.

I still don’t quite have the guy figured out, though. xP or Ziata’s plot. Need to work on that…

And I think I’ve been reading too many romance novels lately, because I’m starting to come up with love stories. Not that those’re bad or anything, but I’m looking at these plots and going, “WTF??? How am I supposed to do something like this?” I gotta admit, I like some of the plots I’ve been coming up with, though. xD And of course, the ever popular paranormal plots. Like vampires and stuff. I’ve got a few of those, too. There’s this one vamp plot I really like, though that one needs some tweaking. So far it’s some kind of vamp Romeo and Juliet, except Romeo and Juliet don’t really like each other and are put together because of a treaty and…Well, they’re vampires. ;3 Some outside party is trying to sabotage the terms of the treaty, but I haven’t come up with the terms yet, or even anything else, really. Gah.

Tho’, I’ve got this one plot (and some variations of it, but all different enough to be different stories) that makes me really happy. It’s another paranormal one, but I like those! Ghosts, old guilts, misplaced blame, forgiveness from beyond, stuff like that. Those ones are still kind of incoherent, though. Grrrrrr.

But they make me happy, and are keeping me busy. ^^ Which is good. Because they keep me from freaking out about school. xP

OH! FANIME! I want to go so badly this year; and not just for one day! I WANNA GO FOR ALL THREE. Gotta convince Mom and Dad though. need to gather more information before placing the proposition before them, and start saving more money. Better go turn in that application quick, AND check out that place Mrs. Haller was talking about. AND update the signs in Daddy’s office. I wonder what Mr. Samuels meant by Mrs. Samuels wanting to add more to the cleaning? (I hope that would also equal more money…BAD CAITLIN! Er, or…not? GAH.) I know katie Mattingly and meredith and Katie’s boyfriend and John Feres and his girlfriend and a bunch of their friends are going to be there and getting rooms, and they said they’d be willing to share with me, and I’d really, really, really like to go… I can save up the money and get my costumes and stuff. I think I’m going to go as Sakura (from Tsubasa Chronicle) and Haruhi (Ouran Host Club) and maybe as a guy. I just don’t know which one. xP I’ll have to ask a friend for suggestions. I might go as Syaoran; I mean, I kinda look like him, too, AND I know martial arts. So I could make it real. And I don’t want the expensive costumes, either, though I’m pretty sure I’m going to have to buy the Haruhi costume from a cosplay place. I found a woman who’d be willing to make me a Sakura costume, or I could use the gift Grandma gave me for Christmas. But I found this completely awesome place in Japantown that sells kimono’s and yukata’s and happi’s and I think I could easily find something for Sakura there and just…supplement it. I dunno. I’d still need a guy costume…

Need to order my textbooks… <—–COMPLETELY RANDOM THOUGHT.

And that, ladies and gentlemen, is a prime example of why I don’t update often. I can never keep my thoughts straight. xD

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caitlin on January 20th 2008 in Uncategorized

Yeah. So I haven’t actually ’said’ anything lately, have I? I guess I just haven’t had much to say! At least, not that I wanted to share with the whole world.

Dude.

Just saw ‘The Golden Compass’ the other night with my surrogate younger brother. There was a bit of a laugh at first because when I went to pick him up, nobody was there. Of course, as I’m leaving to go check if he’s waiting at the theater, who pulls up but the man himself! He’d gone out early to buy the tickets ahead of time, because even though I’ve got the money, I wasn’t allowed to pay for my ticket. Or my snacks, though I did convince him to let me buy my own candy. (He still bought the popcorn and the drinks.)

xD

So I gave him the coupon I’d brought along to use to buy the tickets for cheaper, since he’d routed that effort by buying the things early. Ah, chivalry. Interesting thing. Reminds me of when a friend invited me to his/my old school’s Senior Ball. (Since I didn’t attend the school anymore, I had to have somebody invite me). The tickets were, like, 300 dollars, and the conversation went something like this:

“Hey Cat. Wanna go to Senior Ball? But as friends?”
“Sure! Tickets are…one hundred dollars, right?”
“Mmm One fifty. So it’s three hundred dollars.”
” -wince- That’s…a lot of money.”
“Yup. But I’m paying anyways.”
“Well, I’ll pay you back. It’ll take me another month or so, okay?”
“Nope.”
“Wha?”
“You’re not paying.”
“…Will, that’s three hundred dollars! That’s a lot of money! Yes, I am paying you back!”
“No.”
“Yes.”
“No.”
“Yes!”
“No!”
“Y-”
“No!”
“Aghwsdfkjhjflkfhgjh.”

I never did win that argument… And I still haven’t! Never lets me pay for anything…On one hand, it saves me money, which is nice. On the other, I have the money for exactly this reason - to spend it! I mean, that’s what a job is for, to earn money to pay for things you want and/or need.

Gaaaahhh. I love chivalry. It makes for the most interesting arguments. xD

“Because I’m a gentleman, that’s why!”
“Well, a gentleman never refuses a lady, right?”
“Yes. Because we’re chivalrous like that.”
“Well, right now you’re refusing me!”
“I-you-me-we-that-what…Arrgggghhh.”
“I win.”
“A gentleman always lets a lady win.”
“You-!”

…Dear God, I’m so off topic. I need to not wander so much; I get lost very easily. Now, where were we…? Oh yes. The movie.

For all that it skipped a number of scenes (a necessary and understandable thing), it was good. Very good. OKay, so it stopped early of the book’s actual ending, but it was a satisfactory ending to the movie. All in all, well worth the money and general confusion of trying to get there that evening. I can’t wait to see what they do to the second one! Of course, the second one ought to be really good, because there are even more fight scenes! And let me tell you, the fight scenes in this movie…Whooo! Somebody shut off the testosterone before we slip and hurt ourselves.

Really good fight scenes.

Iofer Raknison: Is that all? Is that all? *laughing*
Iorek Byrnison: *swipes at Iorek’s face, taking his jaw off and then bites his throat*
Iofer Raknison: O.O *topples over*
Iorek Byrnison: Yes. Yes, that is all!

Oh man. And the end, with the battle between the witches and the guards and the gyptians and Iorek and the aeropilot…So very cool. So very worth it.

And now…to the daily drudgery of chores. At least I like to clean, so it’s not that bad. xD

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caitlin on December 10th 2007 in Uncategorized

Funny, That Silver Lining Looks a Lot Like Solder…

Yeah. So I could use a silver lining, really. Thus, bad news first!

Our water heater busted. Like, it flooded our garage. So we haven’t had hot water for a while. There was no hinting little noises or anything! It just…sprung a leak, and then BOOM. Flooded garage. So no hot water. We had to replace the entire thing! Gah. This…it’s expensive. REALLY expensive! I mean, I already crashed the car, and we had to pay for that - this cost nearly as much as the repairs did!

Okay, God. They say you test us for a reason, that there’s some kind of silver lining - so where’s ours in all of this?

Well, maybe it’s this stuff. Granted, all this stuff happened before the heater busted, but hey. So.

Usually, we don’t put up a tree in our house until the 21st because Ian’s birthday is the 20th, and he feels looked over because of all the Christmas madness. So we leave he Christmas stuff until after his birthday, and even exchange gifts on the 6th - the Feast of St. Nicholas. Well, not this year. This year we’ve got all the decorations up first, almost from the first day of December! We still exchanged gifts on the 6th, but we had a tree up. And a decorated one, at that!

Why?

Because I won it in a drawing. Ha! My parents took me to some charity tea - the Tinsel Tea for the ValleyCare Foundation, I think it was (and it was really good, too!) - and there was a drawing for a bunch of professionally decorated trees. Everyone who was at the tea got a number of tickets, so the folks and I went around and ‘voted’ for our favorites. We didn’t really expect to win, after all, but it was fun, anyways. And since we never got a call, we figured we hadn’t won.

Well, we found out about three weeks ago that we had won, and they’d called us a week before that! But Ian picked up. So he didn’t tell us.

So they called again. WOOT! I won a pre-decorated tree! AND all the crazy extra house decorations that went with it! Six boxes worth! Whooo!

So that was cool.

And I got some good stuff for Christmas, too! My mother knitted me a wool poncho. Yes! A wool poncho, just for me! And alpaca wool, at that! It’s this beautiful purple color, and it’s got a three or four inch fringe, and it’s so heavy and warm and soft and comfortable…Mmm! Yay! I love it. And she knitted it herself!

Of course, what really got me was Ian’s gift. I mean, my brother is, unfortunately, a jerk. An ass. Any other name we can think of. He is. It’s sad, because he has these flashes of actual humanity which make the meanness so much worse, because we know there’s a human somewhere in there. So. Other than ranting about the general nastiness of my brother, because this is actually a good thing. For me, at any rate.

He bought me a book. A love story, to boot. By one of the premiere authors of romance. Kathleen E. Woodiwiss. And not just any one of her books (all of which are fantastic) but her most recent one! The one that came out less than three months ago! So…So…Well, it meant he had to pay attention to things I liked. Knowing Ian, that’s a really odd feeling, knowing that not only did he bother to take the time to notice what I liked, but what I liked within that broad subject.

I like to read - he could have gotten me any old book. I like to read romances - he could have gotten any romance novel off the shelf, by any author. But instead he…he actually paid attention to the titles I’ve got on my shelves, to the ones I read more than once. I mean, he had to actually listen to me talk about some of them at some point to know I liked this woman! And…and…

Dude. It was one of the best Christmas gifts I’ve gotten, just because it meant Ian had actually thought about giving me something I would like. Like, he had really thought about it.

And he’s been ‘nice’ ever since! Granted, it’s only been, what, three, four days? But still!

I wish we could be like this more of the time, instead of every once in a while. But I’m going to enjoy it while it lasts, because when he’s not being an ass, I’m more than happy to admit I love my little brother.

…Huh. I guess I did find my silver lining. Whaddayaknow!

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caitlin on December 10th 2007 in Uncategorized